What Kind of Mom do I Get to Be?

Recently the subject of children has been frequent in my home and constantly on my heart.  I have almost no rest from my building desire for it.  Only a month ago the idea of being a mom was terrifying and I abhorred the thought.  Something changed almost over night.  Luckily I have a husband who I find to be both wise and careful and unlike me tends to make decisions based on fact and reality while I go head long into my emotions.  Because there are just so many unanswered questions, we are still on the waiting block and on birth control.

Some concerns we both have:
1.  Are we ready for this?  Our "just the two of us" phase would come to a close.  I'd be lying if I said that I haven't loved every minute of getting to married finally.
2.  Can we afford a baby?  I know, I know, I know- you are never really financially ready to have a baby.  The thing is, I'd really like to stay home with our baby at least for a while.  I don't want to use day care as an a option.  Mike and I wholly use both of our incomes and I know that we can make adjustments in our budget but even cutting out cable, coffee, eating out etc, that's not enough for child care by a long shot.  Going down to one income isn't either.  Mike is good with me going back to work and I want to stay home so we aren't quite congruent there.
3.  What if we move?  The possibility is highly likely that will happen soon.  I like my OB/GYN and I'd like to stick with her.  We have family and friends here for support.  Could we do this moving away?
4.  Jobs and careers- I want to get my master's in something.  I want to start soon and I'm not sure both could be afforded or managed.  What comes first?



There are just so many questions and my heart isn't at rest.  I know Jeremiah reminds me that God already knows the plans He has for me and I should in all things, through prayer and petition bring my requests to God.  He isn't worried about any of this and in fact he's already got it all worked out.  I just need a green light.  Better yet, I need God to show Mike the green light and trust my husband's judgment and discernment.  The fact still remains...I want a baby and I think I'm finally ready to be a mom.

All my mom friends out there- I'd love to have your feedback.