We just celebrated Kenzie's 5 month birthday (kind of). We just took these and I edited them with my new Iphone app called Snapseed (so awesome).
I can't offer a lot of detail but I can say that she is just getting so big! Most of her hair fell out and I think it might be growing back in red. She's such a little doll though and seems to look exactly like whichever parent is hold her (although I think she is totally Mike).
I've had questions, without answers
I've known sorrow, I have known pain
But there's one thing, that I'll cling to
You are faithful, Jesus You're true
When hope is lost, I'll call You Saviour
When pain surrounds, I'll call You healer
When silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart
In the lone hour of my sorrow
Through the darkest night of my soul
You surround me and sustain me
My defender, forevermore
When hope is lost, I'll call You Saviour
When pain surrounds, I'll call You healer
When silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart
And I will praise You, I will praise You When the tears fall, still I will sing to You
And I will praise You, Jesus praise You
Through the suffering still I will sing
When hope is lost, I'll call You Saviour
When pain surrounds, I'll call You healer
When silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart
Oh yes, You are good to me
You've always been good to me
So trustworthy
When hope is lost, I'll call You Saviour When pain surrounds, I'll call You healer
When silence falls, You'll be the song within my heart
And I will praise You, and I will praise You
When the tears fall, still I will sing to You
(I will sing to You) I will praise You,
Jesus praise You through the suffering
Still I will sing
How faithful and true
Sustain me through and through
You are hope and truth
You're my spring of living water
You're my spring of living water
In the lone hour of my sorrow
Like a well watered garden
Who springs never fail
Faithful and truth
Like a well watered garden
Like a spring that never fails
You're my spring and never fails
1. Silence can be deafening- have you ever relied on a certain noise so much that without it you felt like you had gone deaf and were therefore lacking one of your senses and consequently your ability to fully connect to the world? I remember after 911, some of the residents on my floor in my dorm were aviator majors and said that not hearing the planes fly overhead was more traumatic than the knowledge of what had just happened. That's how I feel. For the first couple days I could swear that I still heard that sound but I didn't. I would give anything to hear it.
2. Idle hands something something something- I don't know the actual quote but I do that keeping busy is a bandaid and distraction that I happily welcome. I can't say it's easy, that I enjoy it. I can say that keeping your mind and hands busy offers some avenue for pretending that everything is okay.
3. You can miss having your clothes constantly dirty- there are just certain messes that you grow accustomed to and you learn to appreciate and adore. I wish I needed my laundry detergent more than I do right now.
4. A clean house is not always what I want most- why is there so much room in my home for stuff right now?
5. Things are not easy as breathing- because sometimes breathing isn't easy.
6. All things can be used for Good for those who know Him- the end does not justify the means but the means can provide lessons, comfort, support, and growth until the end comes.
Okay so around 26 weeks pg my engagement ring got stuck on my finger. I haven't been able to wear it since September and yesterday I tried it back on and it fits!!! I can slide it back off and everything. Oh small victories my friend's :)
Last week I went to my first spinning class and set 3 goals specifically for spinning. I met two of them tonight. The fact that I even took my butt to the gym is a miracle (thank you mike!)
Goal 1: complete all 60 minutes of a class. Done and done! Start to finish.
Goal 2: stand when she says stand and go at a reasonable resistance. Bam, check out my boots! Not only did I stand but but but I also kept up her resistance. To give you an idea, I couldn't go higher than gear 10 last week and I was sweatin it out at gear 19 tonight. I kept thinking about my friend Dana. She's training for a marathon and she said that each day she looks at her running schedule and thinks "no way I can do that!" and she always does. So even though my brain was saying "you can't go up another gear," thumb was quoting a former student of mine "lies!" and up the resistance went.
I'm al inspired by several women in my life. My friend Kathy totally taught Zumba until she was like 38 weeks pregnant. My best friend amber is 22 weeks pregnant and still running. And I can't forget about my friend Dana the marathon trainer.
I write this like I am some kind of expert. HA! What a joke. I tried spinning tonight at LA Fitness. Here are a few things that I learned in my one class experience that I can share:
DO's:
1. Wear appropriate shoes- your feet need to either fit in the pedals (so you don't go flying off in some comical way) or snap onto the pedals. Unless you are Uber cool and own the cycling shoes, make sure that the bottom of your sneakers are solid and have lots of padding. Big no no to wear worn out shoes with no sole support.
2. Wear capris- if you are plagued with thunder thighs like me then shorts are a major hazard but so are long pants. I watched the girl in front of me get caught in her wheel and the wheel jammed. I tried not to laugh. Capris are perfect!
3. Seat adjustment- I don't know how to tell you to adjust your seat and handle bars, only to tell you to make sure you do it or you will be so sorry when you get going and try to lean forward. Yikes!
4. Drink like a fish! Water, that is
5. Prepare for some tushy tenderness. Had I known I would have worn a towel strapped to my bum.
DON'T
1. Pretend that you can cycle at the resistance and speed as the Uber cool person with the professional snap on shoes and spandex riding gear (especially if you are like me and this is your first week working out post-partum). But keep moving... just keep moving.
2. Feel the need to always stand up. If you need to sit then sit but be willing to push yourself.
3. Get off the bike too fast. Total Bridget Jones moment when I tried to get off the bike.
4. Forget the water and a towel
Did I enjoy it? Meh...
Was it worth it? For sure
Did I feel great afterward? Yes except for the butt soreness
Will I do it again? Possibly
