Omg it fits!!!

Okay so around 26 weeks pg my engagement ring got stuck on my finger. I haven't been able to wear it since September and yesterday I tried it back on and it fits!!! I can slide it back off and everything. Oh small victories my friend's :)

2 of 3 ain't bad

Last week I went to my first spinning class and set 3 goals specifically for spinning. I met two of them tonight. The fact that I even took my butt to the gym is a miracle (thank you mike!)

Goal 1: complete all 60 minutes of a class. Done and done! Start to finish.

Goal 2: stand when she says stand and go at a reasonable resistance. Bam, check out my boots! Not only did I stand but but but I also kept up her resistance. To give you an idea, I couldn't go higher than gear 10 last week and I was sweatin it out at gear 19 tonight. I kept thinking about my friend Dana. She's training for a marathon and she said that each day she looks at her running schedule and thinks "no way I can do that!" and she always does. So even though my brain was saying "you can't go up another gear," thumb was quoting a former student of mine "lies!" and up the resistance went.

I'm al inspired by several women in my life. My friend Kathy totally taught Zumba until she was like 38 weeks pregnant. My best friend amber is 22 weeks pregnant and still running. And I can't forget about my friend Dana the marathon trainer.

Goal 3... On its way!

The Do's and Don't of Spinning

I write this like I am some kind of expert. HA! What a joke. I tried spinning tonight at LA Fitness. Here are a few things that I learned in my one class experience that I can share:

DO's:
1. Wear appropriate shoes- your feet need to either fit in the pedals (so you don't go flying off in some comical way) or snap onto the pedals. Unless you are Uber cool and own the cycling shoes, make sure that the bottom of your sneakers are solid and have lots of padding. Big no no to wear worn out shoes with no sole support.
2. Wear capris- if you are plagued with thunder thighs like me then shorts are a major hazard but so are long pants. I watched the girl in front of me get caught in her wheel and the wheel jammed. I tried not to laugh. Capris are perfect!
3. Seat adjustment- I don't know how to tell you to adjust your seat and handle bars, only to tell you to make sure you do it or you will be so sorry when you get going and try to lean forward. Yikes!
4. Drink like a fish! Water, that is
5. Prepare for some tushy tenderness. Had I known I would have worn a towel strapped to my bum.

DON'T
1. Pretend that you can cycle at the resistance and speed as the Uber cool person with the professional snap on shoes and spandex riding gear (especially if you are like me and this is your first week working out post-partum). But keep moving... just keep moving.
2. Feel the need to always stand up. If you need to sit then sit but be willing to push yourself.
3. Get off the bike too fast. Total Bridget Jones moment when I tried to get off the bike.
4. Forget the water and a towel

Did I enjoy it? Meh...
Was it worth it? For sure
Did I feel great afterward? Yes except for the butt soreness
Will I do it again? Possibly

What I can control

At my weight watchers meeting last night, the leader asked why weight watchers works. Many people said stuff like, "it's flexible", "etools", "lots of options", "easy to follow" etc. I thought about why it has been the ONLY successful plan for my weight loss and I realized that it's about control. In my life there are so few things I can control (and rightly so). I can't control my husband or my daughter (although I try on both accounts), I can't control my students or my job, I can't control bills and the economy, I can't control if my car will break down or whether my daughter will sleep through the night. I CAN control what I put into my body though. I can control what I eat and drink, the vitamins I take, and how much I work out. Even when I feel out of control, the reality is that I am the only one who can control that (with God's help of course). I love love love weight watchers because their plan allows me to control my weight loss goals and success. The plan works regardless of what anyone says but you have to work it.

I thought about part of the serenity prayer: God grant me the courageous to change the things I can. That's why weight watchers works!

There Could Never Be a More Beautiful You!

Something ironic occurred to me today. Almost 12 weeks ago I accomplished, achieved, did (whatever action verb you'd like to insert here) the most miraculous event a human can do (in my opinion). I gave birth to my daughter. What is more incredible than God enabling women to provide the perfect incubator for new life? The intricacies and detail that go into knitting together a baby astound me and I had the honor and blessing to participate. The irony is that not one day has gone by where I haven't despised the look and condition of my body as a result of the pregnancy. I scrutinize, criticize, complain about, cry over, and put down every saggy, stretched, larger, and overall changed part of my body. The same body that carried and brought my angel into the world is the same body I detest now. How is that possible????

A while back a friend of mine told me that people frequently talk about the sacrifices you make when you have a baby: time, finances, freedom. Rarely do people talk about the physical sacrifice. Some women love being pregnant and some don't but regardless of how you feel about it or while you are pregnant, it is a sacrifice. I have such a negative view of this sacrifice though. Did Jesus not make a sacrifice on the cross? God made me for the purpose of manifesting His glory and one way I am supposed to do that is through child-bearing. I'm not opposed to the need to get my body back in shape but I do seriously need an attitude adjustment.

While driving home, the song "More Beautiful You" by Jonny Diaz came on Klove. I hear this song all the time but today the lyrics to the chorus spoke to my heart.

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through 
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you 

I was not more beautiful when I was thinner. I was not more beautiful when I was pregnant. I am just as beautiful now. I know I'm not the only mom who struggles with this. I hope other women continue to find the same hope and motivation that God is showing me. 

S.M.A.R.T. goals

In my last post I mentioned that I do not usually write New Year's resolutions because when I have, they are usually forgotten as resolutions often are. Fortunately, my goal to get back on my weight watchers track happens to coincide with a new year. Mike and I are hoping to get pregnant again in 2013 (I have to take a least a year to recover from the c-section), which means that I have at least a year if not more to work on getting back to where I started pre-pregnancy and be back in shape for the next pregnancy. My friend Amber reminded me that achievable goals have steps and a plan.

My overall goals are:
1. lose at least 45 pounds by Dec 31st
2. join and attend a gym

Losing the weight is self-explanatory (or the need to do it) but unlike last time where I did it with dieting alone (Weight Watchers), my OB is highly encouraging me to start being active. She specifically said to hit the gym. I am battling some post-partum depression and she thinks the working will help weight loss and my emotions.

Steps for goals:
1. I will eat the assigned number of points per day as designated by WW and save the weekly bonus points for a treat rather than exceeding my point daily or never using them. I will start by drinking 3 glasses of water a day (I did great at that when I was pregnant). Always keep fruit on hand at work and home for snacks. I will track track track!
2. By the end of the week I am going to choose and join a gym. I will plan to attend the gym two evenings and work out for 30 minutes and do 1 weekend workout for 45 minutes.

Well...it's a start

2012 resolutions? Bucket List?

So I don't do resolutions nor have I ever written a bucket list because I have never once kept a resolution and I find that I'm so unambitious that writing a bucket list seemed pointless. However, after the major events that happened in 2011, I definitely want to set some goals for 2012 and somehow writing them down for others to see makes them more concrete. I sincerely hope there are a couple people along the way who might be willing to help me and hold me accountable.

Big news of 2011:
1. started a new job- teaching parttime at Madison Traditional Academy. LOVE IT!
2. Became pregnant- February
3. Gave birth to my first child- Oct. 14th
4. Almost reached goal weight (6 lbs to go) before realizing I was pregnant

Very short list but big things happened. I don't anticipate the same huge events (afterall what can top having a baby?) but there are a few things I'd like to accomplish this year while I am not pregnant

Goals for 2012:
1. loss of some pounds and inches. Last year I lost about 45 pounds so my goal is to lose that by December 31st (because I know I can). I also plan to lose the following inches in certain body parts:
              waist: 12 inches
              hips: 6 inches
2. finish my master's and graduate (dates for walking and finishing classes are set)
3. drifting school- there is a place in Phoenix where you can learn to drift. I will do it since I won't be pregnant this year (at least not planned).
4. complete at least one project from pinterest (possibly Kenzie's first birthday party).

I may add more items to the list but I think these 4 items will take the all of or at least the majority of the year to reach. I guess the next step is to figure out how to make these goals happen.